bbvisarousing

bbvisarousing @ 2009-08-24T16:57:00

2009-08-24T20:58:18Z

Ooh, I love these things. I don't care, they're fun. You know the drill, comment anonymously!

bbvisarousing @ 2009-08-18T22:10:00

2009-08-19T02:13:45Z

I officially love Vancouver. It’s so pretty here and whenever I get the chance to do a movie here I get so excited. And! Nikki is here! And I love her so this is just the most epic thing ever. For some reason, it’s like everyone is in Canada. Or maybe just a few of you but that seems like everyone so there. So I guess it’s just party central north of the US, only the cool kids get to be there. I’ve been going to way too many concerts up here. Like, some of them are the more known people, but Jamie is into all of these indie-rock underground bands that no one even gets to hear on mainstream radio or anything, and we’ve been pretty much going to random clubs and bars every night to hear these new amazing bands. And when I say they’re amazing, they are seriously amazing. I’ve been buying so many of those CDs that they hand out after the show for like 15 bucks, it’s amazing. I wish there was more of this stuff on the radio. What kind of music that isn’t all over the charts do you listen to and wish you heard more of?

Private
I’m so screwed up right now. Like, really. Why can’t I just be in a stable relationship and not feel compelled to fuck everything up? I did that with Zac. He was pretty much perfect and I wasn’t satisfied and I screwed up. And I thought that was it, you know? Zac never seemed like the kind of person to even look at a cheater twice. That whole, fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me thing. And for such a long time it was like that. He didn’t even talk to me, and I totally understand why he didn’t. I mean, our break up was so bad, and it killed me. I’m sure it hurt him about as badly. And then all of a sudden we talked a little while he was dating Selena and he told me he didn’t hate me (which I could not believe) and we tried to be friends but that hardly progressed. And at Joe’s party we were drunk and talking and we clicked. And it was great. I had been so excited to have him as a possible friend again. And then he had to go and kiss me. And don’t get me wrong, it was amazing and all of that chemistry that we always had just came forward and god. But then he just walked away and left me there. I can’t bring myself to IM him or text him or try and figure out what the hell is up with what he did. I get being caught in the moment, but I wish he would say something to me and not just leave me wondering.

And then if that isn’t complicated enough, there’s Taylor. I don’t even know what to say to him, or about him. I like him. I mean, I know I like him. I’ve known I’ve liked him for a while now. And hell, we kissed. And sure it wasn’t a legit kiss like the one Zac and I had, but it was a kiss. And he didn’t say anything about it afterwards. He just left it hanging there. And we haven’t been talking as much, and we didn’t talk at all at the party. And, okay, I guess that’s kind of my fault. Since I was pretty much avoiding him after the who Zac thing went down, and I bolted once I was sober enough to drive. But still. He was all over every other girl and flirting with all of them, and it was way more painful than it should have been. He’s seventeen and we’re not even dating. And I just feel stupid and kind of slutty and god. Boys suck.

disclaimer.

2009-08-15T20:34:16Z

This journal is created for entertainment purposes as a part of the role play jobrolifestory . I am not Vanessa Hudgens and no copyright infringement is intended.

bbvisarousing @ 2009-06-25T23:56:00

2009-06-26T03:56:39Z

I’ve been crazy busy with shooting for Beastly. Alex Pettyfer is so nice. He was way adorable in Stormrider so I was stoked to work with him. He’s really big on reading, and so every few days he would come in with a new book. I had no clue how he could keep his attention so focused and get through a huge book so quickly, until he lent me one of the ones he was reading. It was a book by Jodi Picoult called The Pact and it completely blew me away. I had read a book of hers before, and apparently Alex is a huge fan of hers, so I decided to give it a try. I don’t think I’ve ever not been able to put a book down before. Last night I couldn’t sleep because I hadn’t finished the book, so I just turned on the light and got through the end. Her messages are so profound, and I couldn’t help really thinking about it.

Basically the book is about two families who are best friends. You know, the parents are like sisters and brothers and whatnot. They had kids three months apart, Chris and Emily, who basically grew up together and eventually started dating. At the very beginning of the book, there’s an apparent suicide pact and Emily ends up dying from a bullet to her head, but Chris lives. Basically it just goes through the whole trial process of Chris in jail and how they’re trying to find the truth of the matter. But it turns out that Emily had been the suicidal one all along because of various things that no one knew, so no one even knew she didn’t want to live, save for Chris. He had been the one there and had supplied the gun and everything, because he loved her enough to give her something she wanted, despite the fact that it was the last thing he wanted. And maybe that’s romantic to an extent, but I think it’s completely horrible and selfish.

Not on Chris’s part. He loved her so much, it was hard to believe that he could do anything to hurt her. But I couldn’t believe how selfish the girl had been. She knew that Chris would do anything for her, and she knew that he loved her more than anyone, even her parents, yet she asked him to let him commit suicide, to help her and to be there, and to even do it with her. I could never ask that of somebody. Not only does he end up suffering because the love of his life is dead and he always has this guilt that maybe he could have stopped it, but it tore their families apart and almost led Chris to be convicted of first degree murder. I could never do that to somebody. I don’t think I could ever bring myself to ask somebody that I loved to be there with me while I took my life away. And I could never, ever ask them to kill themselves for me and to do something so terrible with me. Not only that, but I don’t think that I could actually go along with killing myself for a person. Like, he was prepared to do it with her but fainted before he could. I couldn’t imagine being in a place where I wouldn’t be able to find any other option then to kill myself because the person that I love is going to kill themselves. I can understand taking a bullet for somebody you love or something, to save their life, but if they’re going to kill themselves, why would you end your life because they’re too selfish to let you live without them?

This entry is depressing. That book was pretty depressing. Well, shoot. I think it’s fitting with all the deaths today, though. I loved Farrah. I was obsessed with her a few years ago. And Ed McMahon and Michael Jackson? It’s surreal.

bbvisarousing @ 2009-06-09T19:31:00

2009-06-09T23:33:02Z

I have spent way more time than is healthy watching these Ms. Swan skits. And now I’m trying to figure out why I’ve never watched Mad TV sketches before in my life. This woman is absolutely amazing. Someone needs to take my computer from me before I start watching these clips and never stop.

I'm picking you and your sister up at one tomorrow. No excuses.

bbvisarousing @ 2009-05-28T06:51:00

2009-05-28T10:52:52Z

So, I'm kind of not sure about this. But then I just kind of figured, what the hell. It'd be kind of cool to know how I stand with people, even if I don't really know who they are. Or maybe I can take a wild guess given what y'all say, I don't know. Anyway, you know the drill. Anonymous commenting, whooo.

bbvisarousing @ 2009-05-24T10:01:00

2009-05-24T14:04:03Z

I was just thinking, I have so many scary movies. I don’t know where they came from or why I have them. I don’t even like scary movies. I mean, the pointless blood and gore stuff. That just grosses me out. Some scary movies I do like, like the ones with a legit plot behind them and are more than just mindless gore-fests. But the whole popping out of nowhere and scaring me to death thing I can’t say I particularly enjoy. But yesterday I literally had nothing to do all day – I had to wait at my house for a contractor, and it was raining, so I just stayed inside and decided to watch as many of the scary movies that I had. Uh, bad idea. Needless to say, I don’t think I’ve slept in about 30 hours or so.

Anyway, I was offered the role for a movie just the other week that my agent ended up declining. But they wanted me to have like a blonde bob and to gain like fifteen pounds. They wouldn’t even let me wear a wig, they really wanted me to cut off all my hair and put it through torture trying to turn it bleached blonde, and they really wanted me to gain weight. Thanks but no thanks. I can’t imagine doing something like that for a role – that takes so much dedication. I always hear about actors having to change their appearance drastically for roles, and that’s just crazy. Slap on a wig and a fat suit for me, thanks. Would you ever do something crazy to your appearance that could last a while after the movie ended to get a role?

// Jemma

Don’t plan anything for your birthday. We’re having a total girl’s day, manis, pedis, the works. Oller can come too if you want, ha

bbvisarousing @ 2009-05-12T19:44:00

2009-05-12T23:44:59Z

Prom is soon, but I won’t go through my thoughts on it, since everyone else has covered that base. Sooo..

I met Kelly Clarkson yesterday! It wasn’t even in a way I would have expected, like at an event or even randomly running into her at the studio or something. I was grocery shopping and we were in the same aisle. It took me a while to realize who she was, and it was so annoying. Like you know when you recognize someone but you can’t put a name to the face? But then it finally clicked and I was like woah. I introduced myself and got to be an annoying fan girl and she was totally nice. We totally ~bonded in the cereal aisle, and she told me about her upcoming tour and I decided that I’m going to go to as many of her shows as I possibly can. Kelly Clarkson is my idol, and her being so cute and sweet only made her more of my idol. I hate when people focus on her weight and complain about her being fat or something. She is totally not fat, and with a voice like hers, she could weigh 800 pounds and it shouldn’t be an issue. When someone can hit the notes that she can hit all the time, they should look however the hell they want. Just saying.

But I am really stoked for prom. I lied, but I had to throw that in there.